Drugs and Too Much Fun

The last few weeks have been hard for me. On June 4, 2007 my cousin Natasha Settles died of a drug overdose. The pain that her death caused my family is horrible. She got into drugs at a very young age, but no one expected that she would die. She was 23 years old and left behind a 3 year old son. At the funeral I was so depressed at the hardness of my extended family’s hearts. My dad did the services and preached the gospel to them, but they sat there like stones from where I was sitting. Dad said that her brother and his girl friend were very tender, but they were not in my line of vision. Please, please pray that they will come to know the Lord. My parents, my sister, and I are the only people on this side of the family that are Christians. My grandma sincerely believes that she is okay even though she never has put her trust in God and she isn’t going to last much longer. She has about a half a lung left and she continues her chain-smoking while on oxygen… Just pray for them…

            I went to see three of my friends from Kentucky and discovered that one is already in a place where she will probably be dead in a few years and the other is headed in a similarly bad direction. Thank God that my very best friend is still doing fine. She is headed off to college now, but I think that she is going to be okay. In some ways I am glad that I got away from that group. I don’t know where I would be if I had continued in that crowd. I would like to think that I would still be the same innocent girl, but it’s not very likely. Sometimes when I am around these girls I feel like I am the only virgin left in the world, like I am the only one who still holds to the belief that sexual contact before marriage is wrong.

            Anyway on the bright side, I have enjoyed living up here. I met the most amazing person over a year ago and now we are inseparable. I’ve had the chance to go to a school that gives me plenty of options and I’ve been able to attend the church where my parents were married. My sister and I have both been baptized here and have grown a lot spiritually. I learned something very important through my move from Kentucky to Indiana, which is that God always knows what he is doing when things don’t turn out exactly how you would like them too.

                                    ~Liz~

Hey People

I havent been on here in quite a while. I miss the internet... yes... that is sad, but I do...

This week has been crazy... as has every other week for the past month.

Monday and Tuesday I went to school... Although Tuesday was only a half day. Both days were equally difficult for me. I have been barely hanging on at school it seems. Don't get me wrong, my grades have not suffered, but I am not motivated at all. In the morning all I can think about is how tired I am and how much I don't want to go to school and listen to the same thing that I listened to the day before. In the evenings mom and dad will ask me how my day went and I honestly don't even remember, so I just drag myself through dinner, force myself to do homework, take a shower, do my devotions, and go to sleep thinking about how in only a few hours I will have to get up and face the world again. I do love school and I love to learn so don't think  that I don't appriciate my education, because I really do, but I am just tired. The only think keeping me going is the grace of God, because otherwise I don't know what would have happened to me.

Today I go to get the results to the fasting bloodtest that I took Wed., so maybe that will help us figure out what in the world is wrong with me. Pray for me. I need all the prayers I can get right now.

~liz~

hey y'all,

Once again, I no longer am able to get on the internet as much due to my families present financial state, so yeah... I can only get on here when I go to the library so don't expect much. :'(

Hey y'all

This weekend my family is having family time and I think tomorrow we are having a day trip somewhere... I have no idea where. lol So yeah... if I turn up at church it is because we couldn't decide where to go. haha I am personally hoping we don't go anywhere. I love going to our church and I do not want to miss Sunday School especially. Last week was awesome!

Last night I finished a monopoly game for the first time. Mom and I were the last players and I think she let me win... but it was extremely fun. At about 10 last night my family pulled out the flashlights and we went on a walk in the dark. The sky was beautiful. It was covered with stars and in the distance we could see the flashing of heat lightning.

I have so much I need to get done before the 19th.... Mom is going to be pretty busy so I it is up to me to get everything cleaned up. On the 20th I am going to King's Island, on the 21st two of my girls from Kentucky are coming up, and on the 22nd I am having a family thing for my birthday. Next month I plan on doing something with the youth group... I can't have them both together because it would equal out to about 50 people and mom would be overwhelmed.... Anyway...

Yesterday I finished Brave New World, and a couple days ago I finished The Jungle. I have one question, "Will we ever read something about capitalism?" lol I doubt it... which makes me sad. I still have to do both journals for those books and I need to read the Grapes of Wrath... ugh... thats all I can say... I started reading it last night...

I am hoping I can get another babysitting job soon.... I told my dad that I would never babysit on Sunday again... ever. That was terrible. I didn't get anything out of either message... At least I can be thankful for Sunday School... That was nice. And I had some good help at church.

The fact that Summer School is over for me is bitter sweet. Now I wont have as much to do... Oh well. I think I might be able to find some things to do... Grandma gave me a bunch of fleece, so I could make blankets, or pillow covers, or scarfs. Those are always nice to do. Not only that but mom is going to teach me how to make a comforter sometime this summer and I have a feeling it is going to drag on into the school year.  Still I will miss it... for other reasons... ... . lol

Today my parents want to go swimming... ugh... I really don't enjoy that very much for a couple of reasons. 1. I can't swim 2. I don't like swimsuits at all. Oh well... not much I can do about it. I will just go and pretend I am enjoying myself and maybe no one will notice how much I hate it. *sigh*

Well I have other things I need to be doing.

liz

Hey y'all I found this on a friend's site and I had to add it to mine.

sad sad story....................

girl- Yeah, I had to go to the doctor.

boy- oh really? why?

girl- Oh nothing, annual shots, thats all.

boy- Oh

girl- So what did we do in math today?

boy- You didn't miss anything that great.......Just lots of notes

girl- Okay, good Hey, I have a question......

boy- Okay, ask away

girl-........How much do you love me?

boy- You know I love you more than anything

girl- Yeah.....

boy- Why did you ask?

girl-................>silence<..........

boy- Is something wrong?

girl- No nothing at all

boy- Good.

girl- ..............How much do you care about me?

boy- I would give you the world in a heartbeat if I could.

girl- You would?

boy- Yeah.........of course I would >sounding worried< is there something wrong??

girl- No, everythings fine......

boy- Are you sure?

girl- Yeah.

boy- Okay.......I hope so.

girl- ..............Would you die for me?

boy- I would take a bullet for you any day, hun

girl- Really?

boy- Any day. now seriously, is there something wrong???

girl- No, I'm fine, you're fine, we're fine, everyone is fine.

boy- ............Ok

girl-......................Well, I have to go I'll see you tomorrow at school.

boy- Alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.

girl- Yeah, I love you to, bye.

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:

boy- Hey, have you seen my girlfriend today?

friend- No

boy- Oh.

friend- She wasn't here yesterday either.

boy- I know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.

friend- Well, dude, you know how girls are sometimes

boy- Yeah........but not her.

friend- I don't know what else to say, man.

boy- Okay, well, I need to get to English, I'll see you after school.

friend- Yeah, I  have to get to Science, talk to you later.

THAT NIGHT:

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girl- Hello?

boy- Hey

girl- Oh, hi.

boy- Why weren't you at school today?

girl- uh.......I had another doctor appointment.

boy- Are you sick?

girl- ..................um I have to go, my mom's calling on my other line.

boy- I'll wait.

girl- It may take a while, I'll call you later.

boy-........Alright, I love you hun.

very long pause<


girl- (with tear in her eye) Look, I think we should break up.

boy- What???

girl- It's the best thing for us right now.

boy- Why????

girl- I love you.
>click<


THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.

boy- Hey dude

friend- Hey

boy- What's up

friend- Nothin, hey have you talked to your ex lately?

boy- No

friend- So you didn't hear?

boy- Hear what?

friend- um... I don't know if I should be the one to tell you......

boy- Dude, tell me

friend- uh....Call this number....433-555-3468

boy- Okay............

BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL

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voice- Hello, Suppam County Hospital, this is Nurse Beckam.

boy- uh.......I must have the wrong number, I'm looking for my friend.

voice- What is their name, sir?
(boy gives info)

voice- Yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.

boy- Really? Why? What happened??? How is she???

voice- Her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.

boy- WHAT HAPPENED??!!!!

voice- Please come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.

boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*

BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE

3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.

boy- Oh my gosh! Are you ok??

girl- ..................

boy- Sweetie!! Talk to me!!

girl- i..........

boy- You what?? YOU WHAT???

girl- I have cancer and I'm on life support.

boy- .....................>breaks into tears<......................

girl- They're taking me off tonight

boy- Why??

girl- I wanted to tell you but I couldn't

boy- Why didn't you tell me????

girl- I didn't want to hurt you.

boy- You could never hurt me

girl- I just wanted to see if you felt about me, the same way I feel about you.

boy- How is that?

girl- I love you more than anything, I would give you the world in a heartbeat. I would die for you and I would take a bullet for you.

boy- ...........

girl- Don't be sad, I love you and I'll always be here with you.

boy- Then why did you break up with me?

nurse- Young man, visiting hours are over.

BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.

But what the boy didn't know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.

NEXT DAY

The boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other...
THE NOTE SAID: "I told her I would take a bullet for her....just like she said she would die for me..."